saturday night was another failure this town really just is a pile of shit. run by mormons. i had a conversation with one of my mormon friends & without really realizing it... they really DO run my town. no wonder its so wonderbread-housewive happy. oyyy... my mom was upset that i didnt want to see a movie with her and my dad on a saturday night so she took my car keys. are you kidding me??? im 20. papa vannini came through stole them from her purse, hid them in the bushes & text me. at least someone sees through the psychoness..........
anyways. ended up wasting gas driving around aimlessly until we grabbed pineapple express from noelle's house & watched it at mi casa.
sunday megan olsen & i drove up to santa barb to visit her sister kirsten who just moved up there into the CUTEST little cottage in the sb hills. we shopped at state st & made ravioli's for din din at her house. she started work tommorow at the SB hospital for pediatrics so we hung out with her for a little while then went down to ilsa vista to visit mike langer & jamie stew. it was super fun we knocked back a few bottles andre's (good call on the new flav jamie) and just hung out at mike's pad it was super fun i missed them & it was a fun laid back night in IV.. which usually doesnt happen hahaha. slept at jamies & didnt really get that wasted until we were like back at her apt. where megan & i did sit ups and played with their buny rabbit hahhaha. this morning it was a GORGEOUS day down there!!!!!! i wish we coulda stayed longer but UCSB already started winter quarter BOO so we just grabbed some lunch & headed back to the delightfully boring SCV. it was a really fun night though with everyone & i LOVE driving with 126 with megan its our favorite freeway and its just the BEST. i missed my megan. she is my sister forever and i just really missed being attatched at the hip with her everyday for 4 years. its so hard because when were up in SF.. she's got roy there but i have no wes.. & when were down here i have wes but she doesnt have roy... its a lame sitch but we make it work and I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and am so thankful to have such an amazing and supportive best friend like you.
words of the day: FREEDOM and FRIENDSHIP
i have my first therapy session in like an hour. totally NOT looking forward to that, my parents go to the same woman so its like she's heard their side & i feel like she is going to be bias because im the younger person. i dunno. i know that they're drs & shit but.. still. nope. all therapists ive gone to before have been bullshit.
question of the day: will this therapist be like the rest & try to put me on bs medications?
we can only hope not. i dont need medication... i need fucking PARENTS. actually, i need a MOTHER. i think thats where the roots of my problems come from. i have an immature, confused, "adult" figure that wanders around the house screaming mean things, choosing when to parent & who doesnt really listen to me. when i try to explain things, she shuts down & is not interested... and is then all shocked when i tell her about 10th grade of highschool. no kidding you ignorant person, maybe stop with the appletini's and you'd realize that my pain is real and that it'd be nice to have an adult to look up to in life instead of being tossed into the vicious world like the sheltered blonde bubbly i am..
maybe i can squeeze an adderall Rx from her though........
hahahhahahahahha. kidding. halfly. not really. maybe.
day 3 of no herb; feeling a little more optimistic but i WOULD really love to toke before i go see this lame therapist but she'll see right through it. maybe the more reason to do it, but i made a promise to myself & someone else to at least try it for a week. i know this sounds lame... but i just get really depressed being on facebook & seeing everyone's pictures & comments & status & all that jazz about going back to school & having so much funnn blah blah blah getting texts from everyone "wish you were here".... ya. me too dudes. i wanna delete it but i dont want to lose contact with everyone so i just gotta step my game up and make YOU all jealous of ME!
CIAO BELLA! Xx
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