i had an epiphany.

on saturday i had to take wes down to the fashion district in LA to get some snowboarding material to patch up the rip in his pants so we went down to the textile blocks & cruised around. i was really impressed with all i knew about the weft & waft & etc with fabric & how much it should cost, whether its good blah blah.... thanks ADM 260 :) we parked ontop of some rooftop and when we had finished our mission we grabbed a hot dog & sat on the roof smoking & such looking at our AMAZING view of LA. that is when i decided that i am going to rule LA. i was forced back into this town and i believe that i am going to come out on top.

this song explains everything that i feel right now. to the tee. amazing lyrics, read:

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same I'm through with playing by the rules Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes and leap

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you can't pull me down...

I'm through accepting limits
'Cuz someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But 'till I try, I'll never know
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I have lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
And you can't pull me down...


So if you care to find me
Look to the western sky
As someone told me lately -
Ev'ryone deserves the chance to fly And if I'm flying solo At least I'm flying free
To those who'd ground me
Take a message back from me -

Tell them how I
Am defying gravity!
I'm flying high
Defying gravity!
And soon I'll match them in renown
And nobody in all of Oz
No wizard that there is or was
Is ever gonna bring me down!





for those of you who havent seen it, that song is called defying gravity from the broadway musical wicked... download it.




i have a bit more to write but i have to cut short right now due to a dr appt. :( i have a stomach ulcer. lovelyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. TTFN!


CIAO BELLA! XX